It goes a little like this.......

First I would love to say Thank You so much for the lovely comments, I've missed each and everyone of you girls!

I am ready to tell you my story;

Well I wish that I could tell you that I was on some remote island,,,surfing, sunning, drinking long island teas, relaxing on the beach for the last month; but the truth is that I was here at home all that time! So what the heck was I doing you wonder?

Nothing,,,well not totally true, I was still mommy, and wife, and cook, maid, and all of my other titles but I was not a scrapbooker! Not even a blogger,,,I completely stepped away~~~ away from creating, from stalking, from talking to anyone about scrapping! I really felt weird about closing up Scrapping Out Loud and letting it go was tough on me,,,,I couldn't even take the blinkie off until yesterday! At first I wasn't sure why it was so hard to let it go, I guess I was so stuck in the rut of it all, creating my layouts for the blog every tuesday became a big part of my scrapping but the only problem with that was,,,it was the only scrapping I was doing! Really, I got together once in a while with a couple friends to scrap but usually to do my layouts for SOL! And once it was all gone I felt like a huge phony, a fake, here I was this lady who ran a challenge blog but I could barely keep up doing my pages for the blog! I am a sahm and beleive me I have time to scrap but I just couldn't get going. I lost my mojo, my will to scrap, my creativity! I decided it was time to step away and see if I could or would ever want to scrap again! In some ways I didn't miss it, or even look at my scrap space! My family wondered and asked if I was okay, and of course I said yeah, just need some time off! But the truth was, I wasn't sure if I wanted to come back ,until this weekend.

I sat with a friend and told her about why I was not scrapping and still I couldn't say that I felt like I was this big fake! I didn't have my act together and I was barely hangin on and nobody knew it but me. I really can't explain why my mojo dried up and left, but what I do know is I want to get back,,,get back to scrapping the way I did in the beginning,,, with passion, and purpose! I think that is what was missing the last year of scrapping, I felt that I was scrapping to get my layout in on time,,,to complete it before tuesday rolled along! I'd forgotten why I even began scrapping and worried about the latest products and latest techniques! I'd felt the pressure to keep up, and I just couldn't, not anymore!
You are probably wondering why I've decided to tell you all this story, but I'm not, I'm telling you my story because I needed to tell it to somebody and who better than scrapbookers out there who may struggle in the same way!

Well I've decided to scrap again, to blog, to admire, to be inspired! I am here to scrap for me and for my kids!

I will miss Scrapping Out Loud and I treasure all that it gave to me, but it was time, time to say goodbye and hello to the old me again! Thanks for listening, I'm so glad you guys showed up, you totally made my day!